Before as a kid, I always anticipated the coming of Christmas with lots of gifts and good foods. I always wanted to receive back when I give. It is too depressing if I don't. But later on I found out that Christmas and its essence could only come clearly when I would not expect neither I would want any for myself. If before I don't believe in the saying that "It is better to give than to receive," but now I seemed to grasp its true meaning. I rather give than receive. Hypocritically aside though, I would say I miss sometimes to receive some. I'm still human anyway!
So now, I anticipated Christmas and preparing for it thoughtfully by buying gifts for people; close to me or not, friends or enemies. I randomly give away presents without remembering what I give, or without counting how much I spent. I just give. But for years, I already stopped anticipating to be given back anything. I just enjoy the good-feeling, the self-gratification of giving.
It is in that feeling that I could fully enjoy the season of unconditional love.
Merry Christmas to all!